Checking In

Those of you who follow my blog have no doubt noticed that I haven’t been here for a while. There are reasons for my absence.

In the past few months, I have been in a fairly dark place. I have not been feeling any joy, or satisfaction in what I do. The reasons for this are almost entirely economic.  I have been without full time employment for more than a year, my wife without full time employment for more than five months. Pam and I receive unemployment insurance assistance from the state of Oregon, and I have worked a couple of consulting  jobs during this time, but the bills continue, and there doesn’t seem to be much hope that things are going to get better anytime in the near future. I have emailed HUNDREDS of resumes, filled out at least a hundred job applications, been on at least fifty interviews, and…nothing. Its more than a little frustrating. I live in Oregon, where the unemployment rate is currently 12.5 percent. In Oregon, I live in Lane county, where the unemployment rate is 15 percent.

Now, before I go any further, just let me say that I KNOW that God is in control. I know that He has a plan for me, and that His plan is far superior to anything I could ever hope to devise. I know that, and I believe that.

Couple my current economic worries with my dis-satisfaction about the worship team I currently serve on, and where I am NOT the worship leader, and we begin to shed some light into my dark place.

I am not happy, for many reasons, with where I am at. I will share those soon. For now, I just wanted you to know that I am still here, and will be here.

 

God Bless you all

 

Smitty